Ma had once remarked: 'Do not talk of compassion, talk of love. People do not
have compassion, they have pity.'
Most of us find it difficult to differentiate between emotions like love and
attachment, compassion and pity. Observing Ma, and her interactions one could
feel the difference.
Had gone to visit Ma and was sitting up in her room as was the normal
practice. Suddenly we heard a commotion. An under-privileged woman was heard
speaking loudly and crying. She came up and claimed that she had lost her
slippers, and someone was accusing her of lying.
Ma apologized to her, as she felt responsible that the lady had been
humiliated in her temple. She gave her Rs 200, and asked her not to have any bad
feelings for her or her temple, but to forgive her.
At this juncture, I would like to say that as you continue to read, you might
get the feeling that I am trying to point out, that I had a unique place in Ma's
The fact is, that if you ask any of her disciples, they will tell you that
that is exactly what each one of them felt. That he/she was specially close to
But then all great personalities have that quality.
Look at Krishna, each gopi felt that He was dancing only with her…
Each wife believed that she was the favorite…
CHANGE DIFFICULTIES INTO OPPORTUNITIES
30 April 1991
Ma said to me "You will have to change difficulties into opportunities,
your role is to accept. Everyone is at different points of evolution, you must
accept and dissolve".
Evening:- I asked Ma: "I have always known that I have learned
from different circumstances, masters and books. The answers have always come. A
few weeks ago I had the insight that everyone is my guru. Is my insight
Ma said: "I am quite sure it was".
Later Ma was reading a chapter from her book on Guru-disciple relationships,
where the guru teaches the disciple not to always expect blessings, by way of
placing hand on head etc. The disciple should feel blessed the moment he bows.
I asked Ma: "Since a guru's work is to break your ego, and even your
relatives do it, then can't one learn the same lesson from relatives?"
Ma said: "A guru has no ego of his own. He does not want to impose his
will upon you while relatives would want to".
I said: "What if one dissolves like you said this morning?"
Ma said: 'Then, it is possible. Take what suits you from relatives and use it
to dissolve and grow'.
DADAJI (Ma's Guru Dilip Kumar Roy) and about keeping spiritual diaries
1 May 1991
I went to Ma in the morning. What a treat! She was mostly talking about her
Dadaji had not wanted Ma to make a cult. Dadaji had not ever wanted to
be known as a Mahatma or Bhagwan. But he had claimed that one thing
he was, and that was a true seeker! Ma said: "A guru who had done
Thakur-darshan had kept a spiritual diary about the communication that he had
had with his guru.
Ma continued: "Keeping diaries is a good thing. My desire when I first
came to meet Dadaji was not to fritter so much between happiness and
unhappiness-to go beyond both."
Ma spoke of Dadaji's death. She said: "For 3 or 4 days, he kept
saying, 'I have passed the valley of death, and I have seen the Lord face to
face. I have experienced the bliss that other men aspire."
'When Ma asked: "Who am I?" Then turning to Ma, Dadaji said
"Indira, you are the greatest Grace in my life."
The last words before Dadaji's death were: "Wash my hands, I have to
touch the Lord's feet".
26 July 1991
During the evening Ma spoke about her Dadaji. She recounted how in 1963,
Dadaji had told Ma to return to her home.
Ma had said to Dadaji: "All that is now shadows, I cannot return, but I
would like to learn how to live my new life."
1 May 1991
Someone asked Ma: 'What is God Realisation?'
Ma replied: "To me, it is to care for all. To see myself and God
MIRACLES DO STILL HAPPEN
1 May 1991
I asked Ma about her book 'Miracles do still happen, whether she and Dadaji
were the characters. Ma answered in the affirmative. When I asked her whether
one of the stories was hers, she did not really answer.
1 May 1991
I asked Ma, " Will you look after me in the after life?"
She said: "Of course, I'll come."
I said: "If I go before you, will you send someone?"
She said: "That won't happen. I'll be there!"
Ma came down to the main temple in the evening. At the end of the satsang, Ma
turned to me and said: "I came because of you".
It seems that Sapna (a fellow-devotee) mentioned to her that I had never seen
her downstairs in the Temple.